Larry has been gone three months. I am still empty. The shadow of love is grief and sadness. I am in the shadows. I don’t think I’ll ever feell the sunshine again. In an instant everything changed. None of the old things seem to matter. Everything is nothing.
Gigi,
ReplyDeleteI pray for you and yours every day. Psalms 61:2 When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I. I ask God to comfort you. ~Amy-Patsy
Everything is just so different. Meals were so important and now I just eat cottage cheese. The Meadow was so important. I can do nothing to sustain it. TV was on a lot. I can’t stand the noise. I trust my Lord still, but all my prayers are changed. Nothing is like it was and never will be.
ReplyDeleteSister -Three Give it time. The most important things about the healing are the fellowship of family and friends. That will help you get through the worst of things. I am praying for you too. You do have people who care about your grief and your loss. After I lost Bob, I began going to exercise classes at the senior center and also having lunch once a week with friends or family. That kind of activity helps. Also if you don't already...go to church or watch services online. That also helps.
ReplyDeleteThose are things I wanted to do but the virus stopped from finding a church. I want a church with order and tradition, but I can’t do that until things are safe. I look forward to eating out. It too is dangerous. When I can do more and feel safe I’ll get better. Right now I feel stuck!
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